Jobless Blues

Ahhhh I miss blogging! It's been a while since I sat in front of the computer and type something worthwhile. (Mostly, it's just Facebook or Twitter.)

So what urged me to start this? Well, let's just say I still have all the time in the world.

I just graduated last February (but I'm done with schooling since December) and I'm still jobless. I have applied to several companies but only through jobstreet.com and some email addresses. Right now, I'm not receiving any feedback nor do I follow up. I don't know, I guess I'm just halfheartedly applying just so I feel that I'm not doing anything because seriously, I don't know where to take it from here yet.

Strange how when I was still in college, I was so eager to go on that stage and graduate so that I could start working. I'm an advertising management graduate but it never crossed my mind to work in an advertising agency. My target was publication (Summit Media) or events. Last January, I applied for a production design company (which handled mostly events) and I was hired immediately. But it was I who turned down the job because I realized how stressful it can get - no weekends off, no definite work hours. I can't possibly handle that - but then I applied to another prestigious events company (which handles mostly fashion events) and probably, had I not missed the second interview for my graduation practice, I would have been hired, too. I should be crying with regret by now but I'm not. I'm actually thinking if I can handle the level of commitment this industry is asking from me. Yes, I'm hardworking and all but can I devote that much time to my job?

Then came the answer: I WANT A 9 to 5 JOB. So probably I want to work on the marketing side, or event the account management side. But I find 'clerical' work too boring. I do not want to be stuck in an office cubicle doing paperwork. I want to be constantly moving places and meeting new people. I want to work because I love what I'm doing, not because it's my only choice.

Now, I'm caught in this dilemma only I can solve. And it's not as easy as choosing what clothes to wear or what shoes to match with my outfit. It's a big big big decision that will determine what career you will pursue for the rest of your life. I can be experimental but it's not like I can quit my job whenever I can, right? I really need to make up my mind and I'm in no rush!

The bright side about this is no one is pressuring me to work! I don't know exactly if that is good or bad, but I think having the most understanding parents helps. I mean, some parents are coercing their children to work already, while mine do not mind all the time I'm spending at home. I have a feeling that my dad doesn't want me to work... at all! He always tells me to not aspire working for others, instead, I should aspire to be the boss others are working for. Maybe someday, dad!

So what's my plan? I just got a text from that events company I mentioned above and they said I can work as a freelancer. I'm thinking of giving it a try and I'll take it from there. :) Ahhh, I love the word "freelance" and the no-commitment commitment it implies.

Til my next entry!